Shiloh Rose Archive

*****TRIGGER WARNING***** Sensitive story about things I went through as a child. I cannot hide it anymore. Last night I dreamed of a ceiling and it had a huge lump hanging from it. It was like there was a lot of water in it and it was bulging like it was about to explode. This was another sign it’s time to let it out. They say sharing it will help me and others. I have to let these things out. I haven’t told many people this stuff.

THE LEAKY CEILING:

I listened in the other room while my mom was raped.

My mother lost her memory after being beaten so bad. I had to ride in an ambulance, I had to explain to the neighbors something was wrong with mommy. I had to explain to the doctors what happened.

My mother’s front teeth were knocked out.

I rescued my mom from the locked closet after the beatings.

No dinners made. No hugs. No sorry. No help.

YOU ARE A MONSTER DADDY! Love will never excuse the horrors!

I wanna say so much, and yet there are so many more stories to share. This terrifies me honestly. I started shaking so bad, and a feral scream escaped my lips. I think this is all I can do, I feel so tired now.