Shiloh Rose Archive

“Every girl is special, but some girls are exceptional. -Me

Last night as I lay sleeping with my husband and daughter, I felt her tiny body snuggle close to me. She began to shiver, and become restless. I’ve been a mom for fourteen years, I knew she was getting sick and had a fever. In my exhaustion, I asked my husband to feel her and see what he thought, and he said he didn’t think she had a fever. I knew better, but I decided to sleep a bit longer before she woke up. I hate to see her feeling so unwell, I desire to take the pain away for my children. That’s why I have decided to dedicate this post to my sweet girl.

My daddy called her Blue Eyed Rose, when she was first born, because Rose is her middle name, and she has beautiful blue eyes. My baby is what people call a “rainbow baby” she came after a miscarriage. I was pregnant three months before her and lost baby (Shiloh) at eight weeks. I call my lost baby Shiloh, many of you think it’s my name but its a dedication. It’s also my writer pseudonym, and now you also know where Rose comes from! These names hold special meanings to me, and it reminds me of my “why”. I think being a mother has been the greatest thing I have ever experienced!

Our darling girl, was born in March 2023 and she is full of sass and energy! Her best friend is her older brother, who is five. The two of them play, argue, and wrestle for hours on end. Their bond is so special and when he isn’t around she is concerned. The moment she was born, I thought wow! I had the same kid again! Her and her brother’s faces are so similar it’s amazing! She had all the delicate features of a girl but they look a lot alike. However, she is much smaller and you could say she is the runt! She is a tiny little thing, but so strong!

I remember being worried about her throughout my pregnancy. I wasn’t sure if it would end like the one before, but I prayed so much! She did have a complication, she has kidney issues. The kidneys were not draining properly, this is called: hydronephrosis. The doctors told me during routine ultrasound. I remember feeling afraid especially, when they mentioned she would probably require surgery. It was determined that both kidneys were affected. Later, at four months old she had the surgery on her right kidney, which was worse than the left. Most of the time, the matter resolves on its own.

The day they took her from my arms and took her back for surgery, I almost collapsed. I felt so helpless and afraid. I couldn’t imagine doing surgery on a baby that was that tiny! However, the surgery went well and she made a quick recovery, THANK YOU LORD! Nowadays, you wouldn’t even know it, that she had to have surgery. There is just another example of the miracle that this little girl is and we are so blessed. The love I have for that child is unmatched. Something about her heals a part of me. She looks so much like I did at that age, except for the blue eyes and her hair is a bit lighter.

It’s funny things that you say when you are young about being a parent. I remember saying that I wanted to have a boy first and then a girl so he could protect his little sister. God gave me just that, but differently than I expected. He gave me my step-daughter first, but still so special. My step children are my oldest two kids. God has given me so much! This little girl brings so much joy to us all. She is very loving and loves to cuddle! I love to dress her up and see her twirl. My oldest daughter, is a tom boy and this tiny princess is very girly. I notice that she is quite athletic, with her tall, slender frame.

One day, I hope that I can share this with my daughter when she is older and can read it. I want to share a few words of wisdom for her.

MOM’s Guide To Life

• Give Jesus your full heart.
• Forgive quickly & often.
• Respect is not earned, it’s a requirement.
• Smile often, even if they think you are weird. (True story)
• Guard your heart.
• Keep plants or a garden, it teaches you how to be patient, slow down, and care for the Earth.
• Keep moving forward.
• Small things, lead to big things.
• Pray often.
• Never look down on anyone.
• Lead with compassion.
• Trust your inner voice.
• Keep a journal always.
• Be a girls, girl. (Look out for other women)

This post is to my daughter, but I think that anyone can learn a lesson here. I hope that you are enjoying the journey! Happy Reading!

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