Sisters of Grace

I am showing up here to let the words flow, my heart pounding with frustration. The anger I feel rising in my throat burning my chest. Why is anger so unproductive? It makes you want to take revenge, lash out, hurt someone, and it solves nothing! I am angry as I write this, I must admit. How I would love to take hold of a particular someone, and take the breath from their body! What good will it do?

They say hurt people, hurt people but what do sad people do? I truly am grateful for life, and all my blessings, but sad that some people will always stay the same. No matter how kind you are they will remain who they are and your love changes nothing. This is the hardest part about a fallen world, the lovers and empathetic people are tested daily. It’s a misconception that someone who is kind, and gentle is weak! I possess a strength you cannot fathom, I just let things be. Jesus was misunderstood. Maybe that is why I relate so deeply to him. I admire his composure in the face of adversity.

Lord, give me the ability to stand when tested. Right now I am so angry, and I am reminded of King David. In 1 Samuel 25. David has asked for a man named Nabal to be generous and share what he could for him and his men to share on the feast day. David and his men were journeying and were in need, and Nabal was wealthy. He refused to share with David and his men and even after David had protected Nabal’s workers in the shepherd fields. David didn’t have to ask he could have just stole from him or did him dirty! David is furious and is provoked to harm Nabal now. David felt that his act of kindness was thrown back in his face and he wanted revenge. I feel this deeply right now, as I am dealing with a situation where I feel persecuted and used!

God being gracious to David, worked the situation to his favor. “All things work to the good of those that love the Lord and are called according to his purpose” (Romans 8:28). David stayed in communion with God the Father, he let God know when he was upset and asked for help. Like most of us, David didn’t want to wait on God to step in, he wanted to handle it himself. How badly I want to do something to show this person in my life! I am so tired of the disrespect. So anyway, God allows the wife of Nabal who is Abagail to hear what has happened. She isn’t surprised that her husband is being a jerk, she knows him well. She called him a fool and immediately comes up with a plan to rectify the situation.

That husband of hers was gonna have a lot of people hurt due to his arrogance and foolish ways! She knew that it was better to give David and his men what they had asked for because her husband had plenty! This woman was wise enough to understand that God had kept David from doing the wrong thing because he prayed and he had compassion on this woman. She bowed down and humbled herself to David and gave him the provisions that he requested. It was that simple! Sometimes God protects us from ourselves! As I reflect on the word of God, and prayed about my own plight I feel my heart rate slowing and HIS peace coming into me. God is my vindicator! He gets the glory from my life!

I can imagine that Abagail was quite unhappy in her relationship with her husband, because of how she speaks about him. She is fed up with his ways, I am can presume that this is not the first time Nabal had risked their lives! There are some people who will never seek to do what is right but only stir the pot and make things worse. Oh Lord, let me be like Abagail: wise and courageous! Help me to stay in contact with you through all of my struggles just as David. The story ends in a beautiful display of God’s faithfulness and his justice. Abagail was used by God to calm David down and show him kindness and respect. “A kind word turns away wrath” (Proverbs 15:1).

Who doesn’t enjoy a good love story, David is her knight and shining armor! He shows up young, strong, passionate, fierce and determined. I bet she was impressed with him, and his way of handling business: unlike her own husband. He was rude, selfish, reckless and didn’t care to protect her or his home. He started a fight with the wrong guy! However, thank God that the Lord allowed this story to go another way. David is moved by Abagail’s humility, wisdom, and courage. Remember, women in these times were expected to be merely background characters. She made a decision to protect her home! David agrees to not take revenge and accept her graciousness.

You won’t believe what happens next! Abagail goes back to her husband to report what she had done, he gets so upset that he literally has a heart attack or something of the sort! “His heart died within him, and he became as stone” (1 Samuel 25:37). Can you imagine the fear she had of what he would do to her, finding out that she had done this against his will? He could have killed her and been justified! However, he is unable to render any harm to her and even better he dies within ten days! Hallelujah! “And about ten days later the Lord struck Nabal, and he died” (1 Samuel 25:38). The evil that he tried to put out there came back to him, as the worldly folks like to say “karma” !

You see God knows his children inwardly, he knows how they will behave and react. He knew that David would immediately praise God and give him the credit for handling his enemies. God handled David’s plight, and I am reminded that he will handle mine too! He knows me, I will always keep a praise on my lips. He knows how I love him. David was a man after God’s own heart. Abagail, who is now a widow had been told by David that he will take her as his bride. She is happy to be rescued from her idiot husband, and probably relieved he died. Abagail knew that David was to be the future king, and she reverenced him as such. The prophet Samuel had anointed David as the future king but he has not taken the throne because it wasn’t God’s timing yet. He had to deal with the current ruler, King Saul.

I’m not going down without a fight, but I fight on my knees! Happy Reading!

©️ShilohRose77