Sisters of Grace

My brain can be quite rude when it comes to lazy days, I often feel guilty for resting! I know that rest is a necessary part of life but for some reason I resist it. This issue has worsened over time, especially after being a stay at home mom. Society often portrays being an SAHM, as some pampered princess that gets to stay home in pjs all day! However, that is not my experience, I feel burnout because there is no clocking out!

There is great strength in learning the art of rest, and trusting that you are held. God asks us to work six days and take one day for rest and reflection. If God rested on the seventh day, then there is a purpose! My opposition to taking days to do nothing, really makes me feel unproductive. I am a very task oriented person, and I have a lot of restless energy. I can’t sit still for very long, it drives my husband crazy! I will wake him up on off days and want him to get up and be busy with me. I know that’s not a good trait, but it’s hard to break! I pray I can get better at being still and resting.

Reflection comes easy for me I quite enjoy deep, reflective thinking. It’s part of my writer nature, I love spending time in the quiet, reading, writing and contemplating life. I believe that my need for busyness and restless energy comes from a place of hurt. I have had people in my life make me feel less than and often gave me a complex, because their assumptions about me. They assumed that I was lazy and wasn’t motivated which wasn’t entirely true. I struggled deeply with self worth and often would give up on projects because lack of encouragement. The need for validation has to be broken in my life. I am so grateful for growth and wisdom.

The greatest gift we can give to ourselves is acceptance of who we truly are and live unashamedly! The judgement of others who cannot know our thoughts or intentions must not carry so much weight. I now practice self love, I remind myself that rest is okay. Our productivity is not based on an external measurement but should be based on our own standards. We know our limitations and we should have a sense of knowing if we gave it our all or fell short. I am learning to embrace my role as SAHM mom and not allow anyone to put me in a box.

I do not condone laziness, but I support people seeking to move away from constant busyness as a medal of achievement. When we silence the noise, spend time in reflection and solitude we are more productive. We come back at our goals with a refreshed view, and renewed sense of purpose. GO TOUCH GRASS! Be blessed!