Sisters of Grace

“Commitment is what transforms a promise into reality.” -Abraham Lincoln

Last night, I slept fitfully because before bed I felt bored, and quite annoyed. I couldn’t quite figure out what I was feeling and why. I asked myself “What is it?” I realize currently we are in period of waiting as we are in the process of buying a new home. This transaction has been going slower than usual and it kind of had my husband and I on edge. The waiting game, it’s truly hard to not know the end of something. We hope that all things work out how we want, but in reality we can only do so much.

The restlessness I felt reminds me that my body is resisting the lack of control, the journey into the unknown. Our current goal is a bit bigger than we have ever believed before! This goal doesn’t make sense because it’s bigger than us! As I finally fell asleep, I dreamed of two of my cousins. One of the cousins Meka, she is no longer with us, she died of a drug overdose. It was a tragic death, because of the how random it was and how young she was, I find that I dream of her often.

I questioned why I dreamed of her and it hit me before I began writing this blog post. She came to me to remind me that I need to live life to my best ability! To stop doubting myself, stop being complacent, and get BUSY! The day she left this world, I know that was not what she planned, although she was doing things that were unhealthy and dangerous. We must have a plan and commit our plan to the Lord. (Proverbs 16:3) Today, I found myself again feeling restless, lethargic, and bored. I decided to turn on a motivational podcast by Les Brown, about Commitment. It was exactly what I need to hear to about pushing through!

Can I admit something? I told myself that when I started this blog, I would be committed to writing more because it is what I have always loved, and I have something to share with the world. However, when life got hectic, I noticed I stopped staying consistent. I haven’t been writing as much as I want to and I am here holding myself accountable! Now I challenge you, what is something that you want to do that you may have been putting off?

There is great power in just showing up! We often can’t always get our feelings on board when we have goals. The urge to delay or wait for motivation can lead us farther from the goal. Do what you can do today, don’t put it off. In my weight loss journey, I find that it is way more mental than physical. I feel great once I start working out, it’s getting the will to show up. I have been on this journey since February and I have lost little over 20lbs, but it’s much more about what I gained. I gained muscle, will power, confidence, focus, and courage! I still have a long journey ahead, because realistically I want to loose 40 more pounds. The first step is always the hardest. I am proud of me but it doesn’t end here.

Today, I smile and I thank God for my cousin stopping by to remind me to keep going, not to get stagnant as I wait for the next step. I know that I can’t see what is around the corner and it often gets me in a fuss. However, the better version of me isn’t behind me or sitting before me she is up ahead. Be blessed, have a wonderful week! Remember to keep, keeping on!