Sisters of Grace

My children are my motivation 100%!

“Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord, the fruit of the womb a reward. Like arrows in the hand of a warrior are the children of one’s youth. Blessed is the man who fills his quiver with them! He shall not be put to shame when he speaks with his enemies in the gate.”
‭‭Psalm‬ ‭127‬:‭3‬-‭5‬ ‭ESV‬‬

They motivate me to be a better version of myself. I tell them all the time that they are my greatest work. I have five beautiful children, three boys and two girls! We are a big blended family, and I get to stay home and be with them. I also homeschool our children so that I can raise them in the fear and admonition of the Lord.

I remember a time in my life as a young mother, I was off course but just really trying to do the right things. I have always been such a people person and a caregiver personality that I often would be in friendships and relationships that were truly not worth my time. I was surrounding myself with people that didn’t care about the journey I was on. When you take the higher road many people will not want to go that’s what I have learned!

At the time, my son was around three and he was very inquisitive always asking questions and wanting to understand the world. He seemed to know the right things to ask that would have me contemplating my own life. During this time I had started partying again after a long stretch of sobriety. I had started smoking weed regularly and doing cocaine from time to time and losing sight of who I wanted to be.

I remember one day he flat out told me that he did not like it when I smoked. He was three but he could see the change in my behavior and he knew it was wrong. I remember sitting there completely off guard not sure how to respond. A small voice inside nudged me and confirmed that this wasn’t the lifestyle I truly desired. It did not represent the mother I had once been or the mother I knew he needed.

However it took me a few months to truly listen and realize how my actions were hurting our life. I took the hard roads so many times, and yet they all led back to God. His plan for me shone through all of my running, and all of my darkness. That love reached in a pulled me up and I found myself again.

Today, I am happily sober, and my beautiful firstborn is turning thirteen soon! He and his siblings will always motivate me because they are my life, and like Jesus I gladly lay it down for them.

May the Lord bless you and keep you!